Another Story About Being Bullied

by Mimi
(Nevada)

I tend to keep to myself. My life changed when I started to develop physically when I was a week shy of my eighth birthday. Since then, while my body matured my mind still remained the same. I got bullied by other kids cause of my developing body couldn’t wear the standard girl clothing because menstruation started and I had a very hard time trying to keep my clothes from being ruined.

I never really related to other girls my age nor anybody for that matter. Boys didn’t seem to like me and found me weird while girls thought I was weird because I had developed early. Older guys wanted to date me while older women thought I was their revival. I really had no one to help me through even though I had relatives and my mom. No one knew how to help.

During school it was pure hell not only during the cycles but having female teachers give me the death stare, never understood why. I had one tell my mom I should just quit school and start a family though by that time I had developed introverted tendencies. I really could not rely on anyone.

A year ago relief was in sight thru a medical crisis. I learned I had stage 1 endometrial cancer. I remember being floored by said diagnosis but learned that if I get a total hysterectomy it will end the horrible menstrual cycles but I won’t to be able to have kids. While I was crushed I understood had I waited for treatment it would have meant I would have to undergo radiation therapy.

I believe going through early development had caused me anxiety and depression. Of course it helps not having dread over heavy menstrual cycles anymore. I swear there were times my parents wanted to take me to the ER.

Anyhow I became somewhat introverted because of it. I tend to do my own thing now and never bothers me if no one wants to befriend me or want to share the same space.

I’ve noticed most people that bully tend to not know how to deal with people who are different or admire those they seem to have something the bully doesn’t have like not needing to be the center of attention. I have some of my best moments by myself. It doesn’t mean I don’t want to interact with others I chose my words and actions carefully around people. I tend be loyal to those I care about and while I do enjoy my time with them I still need my alone time.

Sorry for the long post 😁